I think I have thoroughly disproved the null hypothesis as to why my exercise was more difficult. I actually let myself slack off for not multiple days but multiple weeks (the horror!) due to trying to extend my caffeine withdrawal further to reset my tolerance closer to “zero.” Today, I started exercising again. And I had commenced taking stimulants
On the balance exercise, I was as good as I had been at the top of my form, roughly, which wasn’t stellar, but… it wasn’t bad. So the cause wasn’t food, or lack of practice…
It was the drugs.
My experience as well.
Most interestingly, ADHD meds turned my reaction to fatigue completely around. Previously even slight exertions of effort were like “I know I “””could””” do it if I just “””tried properly”””; it’s not a question of muscles but a question of willpower; but I can’t try properly and I know that a lot of people think I’m a shitty person because of it and scorn me and I’m going to cry”, whereas now I still might start that way (but not as badly as before) but after a few hours it’s turned upside down and I’m completely non-ironically endorsing corny fitness motivational slogans like “PAIN IS JUST WEAKNESS LEAVING THE BODY” (very much something I had not expected to ever find myself doing) so that at the end of a long bike trek my thoughts are basically a looping of one of those sites collecting the most over-the-top ones to make fun of them, except that I’m mocking the mockers by wearing it with pride.
I was not lazy or weak-willed like people tend to assume by default, just stimulant-deficient. Vices and virtues don’t exist. There is only chemistry (and electromagnetism), and those who don’t have the knowledge or opportunity to use it.
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