Anonymous asked: How much to have your gender Actually Changed to female? Yes, I do mean gender and not sex or presentation or anything.
um. fifty million? which is less the point where I would want to and more the point where I would bravely sacrifice myself for the greater good
wait, hold on, wouldn’t changing your actual gender to female mean you would be cis and therefore not be dysphoric about it?
is “being nonbinary” a terminal value for you?
no one is allowed to go about CHANGING FUNDAMENTAL ASPECTS OF MY SELFHOOD! I DO NOT LIKE THIS!
also I literally just got top surgery so, yeah, being a cis girl would make me dysphoric
gender is a fundamental aspect of your selfhood? wow.
(i’m super-opportunistic about gender, i was nonbinary for 11 months mostly because it made me slightly happier, but now that i have actually addressed the things that S1 said meant i was Failing At Femininity Forever i’ve gone back to being a girl because it seems like being cis will be convenient in the long term)
(i kind of figured that the typical case of being some gender was that trying to be some other gender was unpleasant and so you wanted to avoid that, not that you wouldn’t want to be some other gender even if it wouldn’t be unpleasant for you)
It’s really hard to even try to imagine how being male could be anything but extremely unpleasant to me, in a way that feels very much terminal-valuey.
The only things that would make being male stop being unpleasant (which itself feels like a massive understatement) would also either make calling it “male” instead of something else stop making sense (the least ridiculous reconceptualization I can imagine would be “the category which contains the ambitious trans women, techy cis lesbians, and male geeks who fail at masculinity” and even that one is really far from anything that could justifiably deserve to be labeled “male” in a way that can only be described as “the equivalent of calling US scientists in the 40s nazis because Einstein and others who ran away from Germany were among them”), or intrude upon my selfhood in a way which screams “fundamentally compromising parts of my utility function”. I really really don’t want to want to want to want to be male no matter how not-unpleasant it could be hacked into being, any more than I want to want to want to fill the universe with paperclips instead of posthuman awesomeness.
I suspect that I might be slightly more strict about this than many people around here as thinking of bihacking doesn’t make my brain go “yay more people would be attractive” but instead “no I don’t want to want to cuddle with the non-prettys or to find the non-prettys attractive because then I wouldn’t prioritize the prettys who are the only ones I want to want to cuddle with”, but yes it isn’t all that uncommon for people to actually care about identity (even if for me it’s more of a “NOT THIS but I don’t really care otherwise” while some others might actually be like “THIS”).
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